Title: Lightweight
Pairing: HaeHyuk
Rating: PG-13
"I'm a lightweight better be careful what you say
With every word I'm blown away
You're in control of my heart "
After the photoshot ended I went to the monitor to see the pictures. A stupid smile was on my face as I stared at the members' photos. All of them were beautiful. While looking through them I saw mine. My head was covered by a brown wig and fell elegantly on my shoulders. The shirt's first two buttons were open, showing some of my skin. My eyes were covered by pink flowers. It looked quite beautiful and elegant. I liked it a lot.
I felt my shoulder being tapped and I turned around to see Kyuhyun's smirking face.
"What?" I asked, knowing that he has something in his mind.
"Your eyes are covered again, silly hyung." He laughed and put his arm around my shoulders.
"Yeah, so..?"
He blinked and sighed. "You're too innocent and stupid." He shook his head and walked away. Confused, I looked at the monitor again wondering what he meant. What was wrong? I studied the photo again and then bit my bottom lip. Oh. That's what he meant. My eyes are covered again because they're.. ugly. I nodded to myself and went in the bathroom. I wanted some time alone. I wanted to see why they think I'm ugly. As I entered the bathroom I stopped in front of the second sink and stared in the mirror. Frowning, I touched my left eye softly. I had one lided eyes, it's true. But my fans said that they're cute. Now that I look better at myself I notice how different I am from other men. I'm.. weird.
I stayed like this for a while till I noticed that tears were streaming down my cheeks. I wiped them fast, not wanting to get caught. After washing my face I went back in the studio and waited for the members. I sat on a chair quietly while looking down. All I wanted was to go home and lay in my bed while hugging my blanket.
After one more hour we went to the van where out manager was waiting for us. I stayed quiet all this time knowing that if I start talking I might break down. Donghae held my hand all this time and I knew he noticed something was wrong.
Donghae and I are lovers. Yes, lovers. I never thought I'll fall in love with a man, especially him. He was sweet and caring. Whenever I needed something he'd be the first to take care of me. I'm blessed to have him.
When we reached our apartmaments I went in my room and jumped in my bed and hid my face in the pillow. I looked at the photo of me and Hae on the drawer while tapping my finger on the pillow. The silence was incredible. The members were either showering or sleeping. I was tired too, but I couldn't sleep. Those thoughts appeared everytime I closed my eyes and made me tear up. I curled in a ball and sobbed softly in my pillow. I still couldn't believe that I was called the ugliest member. The words were crushing me down. They were controlling my mind.
I heard the door open and looked up. It was Donghae. He sat next to me and hugged me tightly while whispering sweet nothings in my ear, trying to stop me from crying.
"Hyukjae.. Look in my eyes." He lifted my chin slowly and I sniffed one more time. I looked in his eyes and saw love. He smiled gently and caressed my hair. He kissed the tip of my nose and then my cheeks. I smiled weakly as he continued to plant kisses all over my face. I hugged him tightly and hid my face in his chest. I felt protected and loved. After a few minutes he lifted my chin again and stared in my eyes.
"Beautiful." He whispered in a sweet tone. Hearing him, I bit my bottom lip and shaked head. I could felt my eyes getting teary again.
"What's wrong, baby?" Donghae's tone was gentle and I could sense how worried he was. I sighed softly and opened my mouth to speak.
"I'm not.. beautiful. I'm just.. weird." I forced a smile at him but he frowned. My eyes looked away, feeling that he was mad.
I heard him sighing loudly and he pulled me close. I could feel butterflies dancing in my tummy as he wraped his strong arms around my body. I still got that feeling when he talked or when he touched me. I felt shivers going down my spine and my knees got weak. His lips pressed against mine gently and started moving slowly. I answered the kiss and all my worries were gone. I closed my eyes and his hand caressed my back softly. The bed shifted as he went on top of me and broke the kiss. His soft hand was caressing my cheek and I chuckled softly as he rubbed his nose on mine. He went closer to my ear.
"You're beautiful." He planted soft kisses on my neck and then went back to my lips. "You're not weird, you're unique." He whispered as he pecked my lips. I opened my eyes to see him looking at me. "And your eyes, they're so.. cute and round. I could stare at them all day and not get tired. You're beautiful, no matter what others say." He smiled softly. I bit my bottom lip again, feeling my eyes getting teary. "I-I love you.." I whispered in a soft voice and he grinned. "I love you more." He wiped my tears and kissed me gently again.
He made me feel beautiful, he's the reason why I can be strong when others try to pull me down. He was always here. I loved him.
